what a story to tell

When we cultivate the presence of a Spirit...
Only You know what will happen...

waiting for my next new toy... coming next week!

the revelation of the anointing oil

That would have gotten revelation defined.
The anointing oil.

I thank You for faith as I declare this removed.

Check my space.

Your constant presence...

Im conscious of Your constant presence...

*gak gak*

MY God!

MY God is a GOOD God! ! !

Your Baby LOVES You!!!

facing tomorrow

with ...
Joyful
Confident
Expectation
of GOOD!

Fearlessly Bold!

Live now

you cant seem to reach, even when at top speed.
your heart beats so fast, you can hardly catch your breath.
you stopped and rest and as the dust settles, you saw that you didnt move.
you have been racing, but on the spot.

Truth is, you have already reached.

~ Live now, where your prize is. ~

the mode to be in. . .

The chords to carry, a voice so cheery, in days this lovely.

~ the grace to celebrate ~

rainbow...

the mirror that reflects only

the thought that is for now, most likely

the conversation that would sink eventually

the heart that should be like rainbow always

Quotes

Quotes from a certain intellect...

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. - Look at the stars, or rather the Star.
One of the many lessons that one learns in prison is, that things are what they are and will be what they will be. - the reason for miracles, for faith,for hope.

More...
Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months.
Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative.
It is what you read when you don't have to that determines what you will be when you can't help it.

The cynic in us would invariably consent to such proclamations as truths that would lead us to nowhere but self conceited satisfaction.

There is only one Truth, that is.

It has led me to living this Star-studded life...
A life that has been fashionably crafted out of the prison and read to be one overflowing with abundance beyond yonder.
A very good life indeed...

A very good life indeed...

The length of days topped with freedom and joy.

Issac

People who made me laugh are like gardeners who blossom my soul~~~ nice...

very good life indeed

where love lasts forever...

I'm beaming with joy with the length of days.

Baby...

My darnest soft spot.

Today

Wonderful today.

Its like You all around.
The strength indeed.
Superabounds.

Totally Awesome

Im receiving this curious comfort from You which has created beauty and love out of my supposed loneliness.

Living is such a joy.

Many many things that I thought would make me happy had fallen curiously flat.

I need nothing else.

Totally awesome, like You.

Ducky and her ways

Im truly wishing to get back into your scene.
I miss you. Hope you know. Really know.
Im so glad you got me through your ways.
Your quirky, quacky ways.
This owner-ducky thing would always be.

Bounty Full

How i would hope for a bounty-full.
You gave.
Would it be dreams coming true.
Wild ones indeed.
Love from the Someone with style whom I have believed.
~ style baby~

the whole day

I kindof miss having someone.
On second thoughts, Likely not.
Futher thoughts, Really rather not.

I slept the whole day today.
Baby me.

the strict mandate

' give the devil an inch and he will be the ruler '

a very strict mandate realised

Ecclesiates

the prelude to the future when you are on top of the world

With ~
the grace for everything
when love aint anything like a fling
how i look forward, to even now
where peace falls nicely, somehow

I pray for all my friends.
For inner joy with bountiful rest.
To be in my place,
Where the rainbow resides everywhere,
and you too can lay down, in His bay.

NOW

the now word so familiar , so me, so You, so Great.

Living in the now mandate , a timeless zone.
A rainbow coloured across, with the gold rightly owned.

I love You.

- witness -

the Witness within, who have seen all there is.

wake boarding

e cause of my sat gone, rolling about.
e discovery of a lil known groupie, laughing aloud.

A lovely weekend indeed.
Where the days are loved truly and Yours truly.

Happy Easter Sunday.
We all thank God for days.

above 40s obsession

Or rather my dire need of knowing the unknown.
Two generations brought together. She got me all over.
That really has launched me into wonder. How it is for her.
She is so comfortable. N I wonder wonder.

In love

I fall in love with mikko everyday.
You feel the same with me yeah.

Home Alone

How many of us can actually stay home.
Alone.
And yet feel that they matter, alive.


I feel so comfortable being me.

Love Always

I realised that my life fulfills each day.

I love the way it is.

Like no one can take it away.

Happy V Day

Or rather , Victorious day.

I have the protection. I know it was it .

I love the year of the Rat

I wish everyone I know great Joy!

~~ SMILE! ~~

I love this year, I love these days.
I love my life's purpose, so very Aced.
I love living, it is that breath taking.
I love the hope there is, totally surprising.
All in all,
I love my partners, love love and loving loving me.

Its really cool to have a beautiful life chasing after me.

I only have You to thank.

my handsome mikko

My handsome mikko in his RED baseball shirt.

Gong Hei Fatt Choi!

Tithe

Im sure legions of angels cheered on.
As I ligned myself in Your plan.
I have huge expectations of course.

Those from B would not be tough though.
* Peace *

my coveted bag

It was between a laptop and a bag.
Im girly alright.

Its always cyclical

I had such a wonderful evening yesterday.
Someone from rather far away came.
So pleasantly surprised.
To think, I almost thought it would not be.

Time flew that was and Time came too soon.
It was it when I needed to see her off.
I wanted to see her off, cushioned, with my best ever hug.
Hope that would tell her 'may I be with her forever and ever.'

That when friends like us stay together, we never will be frail.
Guess such is Your gift for me as well.
To be able to find this accidental friend, such a beloved belle.

watch this space

Peace I felt.

You made it so much more easier than what I thought could be Your way. Thank You for this chance. I could take this small step and have a confident expectation of something phenomenal that is coming my way.

Peace.

Critical linchpin

You emboldened me to go on with impunity.

I have no fear ... How great is that. No fear.

What a lovely day.

my new living area

Im finally done with most of the paint job!
My living area is now plum+stone+morning (cant rem exactly what) . Mag says its NICE !

What could be better than a fresh coat of paint for the new year. So cliche.

This is such a special year that You and I, together with mag and You, are having now.

I give it to You.

the smile to everyone

Someone once told me that I have a really nice smile.

------->>>> This is for everyone!

I wish that those around me and those who used to be around me, could be as happy as me!

Friday Night

Dinner table - white wine + champagne crab oglio oglio + white wine + coffee

Simply nice.

Some colleagues are real blessings.

thecrazybear

i pray that none of those near me would be hurt by this crazy bear.
i thank You for all protection.

my babies are the best~

Being in a place where this love of the root of all evil is developed out of managing the most complex of all relationships. I find that human beings are more fragile than I thought. However, I am very much tougher than ever.

the 7 year old melody

How some tunes bring out the melody that you always have somewhere.
To be exact, 7 years back. Lying on the same bed, with the same kind of gnawking pain. Nursing a different area altogether.
The gap in between has since became a gap between us and us. The both of you who has loved me so. I am stronger and braver. I listen to these with much pride and joy. That I once received and gave. N you and you, lived on too. How great life is. Really.

MTM exercise

Mark to market exercise has begun. Its exciting to know how the world values your time.
I thought of leaving and I thought I would miss.
I miss and miss, who and who and what and what. Its amazing how you could get comfortable with surroundings that you feel, are not even the best for you.

Nonetheless, platform reinforced by a plan that has been brough out loud and has stood out bold.
The greatest knowledge of all, the inclusion of timeless, who saw before and beyond.
Make the decision for me cos all things work for good for me. ~lalalalalaaa~

The bud under the stone on me

I told her this 'you are great'.
She really is and she really is showing me.
Her new found optimism so moving.
Its driving her everyday living. I only have You to thank.

Let me give this present my very presence. I would love it too. The many yous circling this little me whom perpetual smile would brighten up this area, wherever I am. Yous are so blessed.

I miss this duck and her ways.
Its amazing how my faithfulness towards her is so unshakeable.

A thematic Year

Currently reading Tuesdays with Morrie.
Simply nice.
Everyday with You.

There is a time and place for everything.
Now, I have the luxury of time. Luxury of time alone.
Im thinking of more and more Ideas. Buy random books on a regular basis, Go vegan, Eat my pills (already doing), exercise enough (already doing) .

The theme for this year ought to be consistency. I am eager to see how far this can bring me.

I believe whatever I do, I am going towards where I am suppose to be.Living Life. The Everyday Theory fulfiled by the definitive of ALL. What could it be other than this : All good things happen to those who love You. Laalaalaaa~~~

The fear of loonliness

I fear holidays. Year end holidays to be specific. The feeling of loonliness is magnified to a pt where it seemed to be on the verge of blowing up in my face. I thought I was depressed. Somehow, everything fell into sweet places and I was ushered into remembering, and then the new year, on just about the right moment.

Long overdue-ed lookbacks.

2007 - the year of exchanges - life glances
From mini mighty to All Almighty - Got to be fuller than ever. In the midst of the undercurrents sweeping me off guards on numerous occasions, emerged two greatest miracles of all. Supernaturally natural, yet totally spectacular as there are no No reasons to negate that it was ever You. You are so smooth. You You ...whhooohooo.

My three wishes for 2008. Written somewhere else. :P

promises

Your promised me.

a lovely day indeed

A day of rest spent with You.

a life of favour

Ive asked for a bigger heart to contain a bigger You lest I explode with shouts of joy each time i think of You. I Love You. Really.

I love spending time with You

Every day. All the time. You are so good.

the assurance

Akin to David's and a preparation for a war ahead.

Proverbs 5:21

You see how i realise that You see me with Your eyes all the time.
You see how i was so moved, i teared.
You see how i know i have made You jump for joy.

You see, im ecstatic that i have made You so.

My BIG Question answered!

Mikko and Memphis were in the Ark!

How cool is that.

* My Quit *

The more I thought of how it happened, the more I know that it is You.

Be so proud of You. You . You !!!

the walk

I walked with you.
You love it so much.
You became tired.
I carried you.
Your legs dangled from my arms.
You rested on me.
I smiled in my heart.
A big proud smile.

I love you.

I dunno how to tell You how much I love You.

Faith updated

Hebrews 11:1 - Faith is the substance (title deed) of things Hoped (confident expectation) for , Evidence of things not seen.

I can see title deeds to loads of things that I have hoped for . Faith faith faith. Beautiful Faith. That then I know that it is You who has given.

Matthew 5:3-10 - How blessed. Very Blessed.

So much

I know God has blessed you and you.

Both of you, to whom my God has blessed with long and healthy lives.

Sometimes I wonder, could it be Adam who has named the both of you. Your fathers brought before him. Then, its me that has personifies you by calling you your names. With that, every sound of your names sings a joyful melody in my heart . Every picture of you comes so close to me. How I love to show you off to everyone I know. And tell them what you do everyday to even how you are when you are sleeping. You will be loved always. By your very owner. And through that I may understand, the Love that was poured unto me. That He so love me! Much more than how I have been loving you. I really dunno what is beyond that. How do I imagine. . . Argh! I feel like Im abt to explode. So much there. Show me God.

Faith not enough

I dont think I have enough faith to get by. Im trying so hard. I should stop trying. Cos my God doesnt help those who help themselves.

Talk to me God.

Luxurious HK

Did you guys see something in me that i couldnt?



This undeserved favour . Pouring all over ME!

My HK Trip

Beyond what I can imagine ...
My Hotel has been paid for . Enough said?
A Good Hotel.
They are looking forward to my arrival. :)
Everything just falls into place
What can I say? Favour as such... can only be from God, to His beloved baby.

I want to make God so happy everyday. Luke 15:5 - He puts me on his shoulders, rejoicing. *gakgak*

God's Everlasting Love

Romans 8:38

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities nor powers (like its still not enough) nor things present nor things to come nor height nor depth nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus of Lord.

Just when I am so scared of losing You...silly me. hehe

The rain was stopped for me!

Its amazing how you have so much faith to pray against dark clouds and heavy rain and have images of God not wanting you to be in the rain lest you fall sick, just to be totally unbeliving when the rain really stopped!

*(@#&#@*&(

Im nearer to the day when it would all become so natural! *gakgak*

I pray for unbeliving tots to GO AWAY!

Im such a blessing. wherever I am. All 55 kg of me. :)

Favour

Unmerited, Unearned , Undeserved.

Since when have I become such a favour magnet that it gets attracted to me everyday at such astounding rate, I feel so touched thinking about it. I pray for a magnification of the capacity to contain such blessings that are coming my way.

I read this the other day and it filled me with so much joy.

1 John 3:9 -
Whoever has been born of God does not sin. For His seed remains in him; and he cannot sin, because he has been born of God.

God's seed remains in me and I have NO sins, with that God sees me as sinless. Im so pure in God's eyes and I lift my head up so high.

For those who ever think that I look proud and felt intimidated. Look at me now and be blessed for I am so blessed.

I quit smoking ... :)

Be so proud of me.

To obtain some sort of a closure after 10 days apart, I lit up again last night.
Indeed, there were no sparks at all.

Be so proud of me.

this is a wonderful life one gets to live.

its me!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

celebrations...

My three big parties to a brand new life ended on a fresh note with just more reasons to celebrate. Not mine this time... but of those whom I love dearly and most of all... to ... US. you know who you are huh.

so true. . .

old turned new

bumped into my 2 old frens at the cannary... and that opened a whole new window to you know wat... keke

Im loving it...

opening night

Thanks for the broadcast, that led to the cannery and finally the Belvedere! It was the opening night to a great beginning and a greater life.

CNY...

As always, I have been less than excited, more than alone.

cobwebs...

My blog is growing cobwebs... But my life isnt.

I have been eating good and well. Moving swift and quick. Thinking all the time. In Summary, I am actively involved in things beyond beyond. I only have a thankful heart left. :)

For a new year...

Looking forward to the adrenaline rush that I used to feel and now replaced by prolonged swimming periods. whoohoo... the added capacity for pressure would ever push me forward in achieving things greater than myself. whoohoo... and with that, i would move you along with your gentle loving care, lets move up together.

A very HAPPY new year to the most impt person in my life. a way too short to feel too long. but i will constantly remind you until permanance remains...

the GOLD class...

you know what i mean. . . :)

Im so fucking going to throw a party in the year 2010!

e hunger pangs

i feel like puking. i feel so hungry.

Living love on a high strung note and loving leave where love is
It was never there not at all
when it comes with all that was hung came faith when dirt it would ever gonna be

I stay drunk with that was left through what could be you tell me with
wish it had nv worse than ever ever gonna live

fearful life

I need to stop living in fear...

I need to stop living in fear...
I need to stop living in fear...
I need to stop living in fear...
I need to stop living in fear...

fear...

my birthday cakes!!!!!!

- - - > >> My cakes on the Nite before.

Proudly sponsored by da fei po darling as well as my beloved trios.
What can you say abt someone who will nv let your birthday go cakeless ? lovelove
N somebodies who would choose such a 'biang' cake heart heart.



I wanted a durian cake! hmph! ! ! ... but i want my frens to love the cake Much Much MORE!!!

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!
Birthday resolution is a MUST for me this year...
Reason being ---> > > I LOOK LIKE AN AUNTIE NOW COS IM SOOOOO FAT!!!

Look out for Fall 2006 Auntie cover.

Why do the plenty of lovesssss ard often managed to precipitate themselves into layers of floats attached to me???

August

Its August and its gorgeous.

I prob would have started.
and I prob would have started.

I prob would have started to tell you that ... you mean the world to me.
Really.

I thought of getting off work, i tot of you.
I thought of weekends, i tot of you.
I thought of New York, i tot of you.
I thought of mikko ageing, i tot of you.
I thought of all things great or small, i tot of you.

As we approach the lovely day when you were brought to this earth,
I want to tell you that, I thank all for bringing you here.

things just get better

I got my results today!
n i passed!
w grades to be proud of!
n the whole world knows!!! haahaahaahaa

Im such a big fat show off.
Well, you can say anything when you are the boss and the world is under your feet.

Hmmm...
actually, i couldnt emphasis enough.
I really appreciate the many times you
-chauffered me ard
-accompanied me
-woke up early with me
-doing everything and anything to make it easier for me
- always me me me ...

Without you, it would not be possible.

If passing that paper is something to be proud of, i need a new word for proud to tell the world how it is like to have you in my life.

Weekend Part 1

What a long weekend...

Action started on Friday.
We went to PS cafe for dinner... and wine. How atas is that.
The food was less than good, however, more than compensated by the ambience with a backdrop that is nothing less than a chic crowd. :)
Then its MJ!
Impromptu though, as i got the mobilisation alert only late into the night.
MJ...aka... Rival of my significant other is about my favourite game on earth.
So, what a shouting match it was going to be, if not for the generosity of a rare being who happens to treat me like her Precious.

Saturday started early... It was finally here... the Porsche test drive.
Getting out of bed was effortless... cos she said that she would be ANGRY if i were unable to wake up. ( scared shit)
Went all the way to Leng Kee, just to be faced with the cruel limitation of my youth... Dunno why, but it always work against me.
Anyway, they were nice enough to draft a brand new insurance to cover the lil me next sat! coool....

Fantastic Fireworks...
They were the only two lucky doggies there. I hope they know.
Mikko had a world class view on top of the car and i bet he was mesmerized. I held his lil paw while he watched on. Such joy doesnt come easy and I sure treasure it a great deal.
As for Memphis, that silly lili's attention had to be redirected back to the action many many times. Hmm.. I realise that, other than ME (excluding anything that he can eat), nothing else can get his attention. heehee...
My dogdogs need at least 12 hrs of sleep daily. I wish them dreams as beautiful as the fireworks we saw together.

national day fireworks

After raving so much abt it, and brought both mikko & memphis!!!!!!!!!! --- > > > I DIDNT MANAGE TO CATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!! ... k n n

Im going to try AGAIN this sat... with lots more planning!
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well, yesterday sux big time.
1) i was having a massive headache n darlin didnt get me my coffee!!! - 1mmmmm pts
2) i went to get instead and didnt have enuff money!!! -1mmmmmmmmmm pts
3) rushed all the way to the east side and saw NO fireworks!!! - 1mmmmmmmmmmmmmpts

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But it could be worse. If not for UUU!!!
I really appreciate the trouble you go, just to bring me two darlins out... cos they sure did make yesterday a more bearable one. - +8mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmpts

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zhu wo de ai ren sheng ri quai le ..keke

insecurity

rem...

I'm as single minded as my dogdogs.

cheers to 06

Im not really into blogging now.

I realise that I think faster than I type NOWadays and thus have a huge problem trying to put whatever that is going thru my lil brain into words.

keke


I will just write the things that i like doing now .. just for those kaypohs who are interested to know... anybody there???

AT WORK
1) Meetings with Harry Potter and Bach and we discuss 'the flat yield curve'
2) Lunch time --- >>>>> eat foods that almost moved me to tears

After work
1) coming home EARLY n patpat my two beautiful dogdogs
2) watch Singapore idol ---> not ashame to say...My skin is very thick
3) going SWIMMING --- > all thanks to who will watch her BB swim.



Im getting further and further away from the market ... stocks or 'stocks' ...keke.
Im engaging a new role .My job is to TALK. ***Take heed*** I will always remind myself*** that nothing sells better than personality***DOGsDOGs*** Im getting random again.

>>>>>>>>SYNTEX ERROR<<<<<<<<

I can only focus on my beloved flat yield curve.

cheers to 06

i love everything abt anything right now...

keke

my food reviews

being on the other side now certainly comes with many many perks... wat can be better than meeting new ple in nice places every other day and being the target of a buttering exercise...

Guess my only working hrs are spent in the gym and pool... to try shaking off those perks that can only be deposited as FATS...

Pierside Kitchen and Bar ---> fish-shaped salmon
Ember @ Hotel 1929 ---> nothing fantastic
Yoyogi ---> Good toro
Gari Baldi ---> nothing fantastic
*** Aoki *** ---> TO DIE FOR!!!

everything is new

Havent been updating for the longest time.
I have been so busy... with
- my new job
- my new exercise regime
- my new tvb dramas
- my new found passion for my dogdogs...
= I kept wanting to just stay at home.

Looking forward

to the wonderful trip i am going to have...

*gakgak*

nitemare

I had a blardy nitemare yest and it had successfully sucked energy from me...
I dun feel like doing anything except picking fights with FBB...

I prob need to find something different to do again ...
Then again, I am in the process of changing my job, trying to monitor my poor semi-not feeling well dogdog, furiously studying for the *&^#ing demanding exam ... and they are all not enuff to keep my hyperactive brain in check ...

GRRRRRRRR....... im so frustrated with myself... *@^#*#@^*@#&^*@#)%

its a wonder how FBB can stand in the path of a charging bull like me with confidence ...
some things are so beyond rocket science and im truly disturbed by my inability to understand...
cos things tat happened without reasons are castles built on sand, vulnerable and weak ...
its all gonna be replaced by proven theories, tried and tested , leaving wat happened a classical note, no longer worth playing.

I think im having PMS...!!!!!!!
GET AWAY FROM ME...

I hate to tell my clients that I can no longer deal for them ... :(

Gold

i stumbled upon gold... and basking on it right now :)

a new life

someone has given me a life so new i nv dreamt that i could have
someone showed me a way so different i nv tot that its possible
someone has managed to make it so simple i feel so dumb thinking it could be the rocket science unheard of
someone showed me the gift for giving and gave me the exclusive right to hold it close
someone has done so much so much ... i couldnt express how much.

happy :)

I’m so sorry that I’d been so complicated. But,

You did overwhelm me with acts of love I find it difficult to contain

I really can’t justify my inclusion in that part of the world where such accommodation exists

And would rather recite all reasons over and over,

Just to pluck myself out from wherever you want me to be

But I’m getting used to having you so different.

Thanks for the confidence.

It meant more than you know.

There are so much more than you know.

I wish to tell you one day.

brokeback mountain

Its been so long since I last fell in love.
I almost have forgotten how it feels like.
‘its nv enough’ brought it all back.
It has once brought me through the baptism of extreme pain in hell before a sneak peek into heaven and yet worth that almost eternal suffering. The high strung emotions firing every expressions of love and hate. I’d ever wished I could quit. I’d ever blamed someone for throwing me off my tracks. I’d ever hit and regret. I’d ever planned on forgetting abt the rest of the world.
I wan to go back there. Only when im there, I would be able to feel my heart beating and me living.

prev posts

Guess my previous posts would have made many uncomfortable. hee...fret not, cos im not in that bad a shape.

Currently, Im rather well protected by an invisible hand. I cant really see it but i know its there. I need help in improving my vision. I need to see things tat is real and not what i have imagined. I wanna help those I love, love me.

unrelated

An unrelated post to an unwanted soul:

There's a guide in life itself

It doesnt really matter whether you are there or not

e underlying

i dun seem to like a simple life very much.
i get so exhausted just searching for the ignition to jumpstart my day
i think tat my desire for volatility is indeed diabolical.
its destroying every opportunity i hav to build a long enuff rls w anyone and anything.
i dun seem to be able to relate
i feel so distant
no one seems to be able to touch me
no one seems to be interested
i feel so alone.

Im begining to feel tat no one would ever know tat i'd ever breathed

my gentle memphis

i saw myself in him yest. He was behaving in a way i wished i could have and would still be loved in return.

random behaviours.

sometimes i feel like a discipline master amongst a school of rebellious kids.
behaviours nowadays are just so out of wack, they instantly reminded me of e very random movements i saw on e tray of bacteria culture i'd created eons ago.
i realised its difficult for me to swallow disappointments or non-honouring of promises like they dun matter.
Not that it meant anything as yet. I just love to blow things out of proportion and imagine how i would react. In this unstable world of extremists, came wif it a gift from rocket scientists --- stress tests. I stress test, and beyond, all relations that would potentially mean anything to me to guage whether i have enough stakes to see me through if the ship i hopped onto hit an iceberg. Cos its really difficult to be on the same lifeboat wif another like pole. I need my very own float at least.